See You in 2011!

I'm trying to recall when I had my last running race. Was it the 15k Amazing Kidney Run in UP? That was like months ago- March 7, 2010 to be exact. And since then, no more as another conflicting aim came up: project baby.

It had to take one miscarriage for me to realize that I tend to have delicate pregnancies. Unlike others, I cannot possibly do brisk walking or light running without jeopardizing my baby (babies this time as I am having twins).

And so, it is goodbye running for now. I will see you sometime in June 2011. I'm still dreaming of doing a marathon. Who knows, I might even try to push my twins along on my first try. Ok, maybe not for the whole stretch :-) Just for pictorials. Hehehe.

To my running friends, enjoy it while you can! I will have to content myself with egging my husband to run for me instead.

I will definitely be back!

Double Surprise!

Finding out that we were pregnant again three months after a miscarriage was already great news. Finding out that we were having twins this time around was just more than what we could ever have imagined or expected! God does give and take away at His own will. But He also remembers to restore.

It was July 19 when I had my first ultrasound to check for the viability of my pregnancy. All we were praying for was for the baby to have a heartbeat. How surprised we were when two heartbeats fluttered before us!

I was struggling to hold back the tears when the doctor showed those two tiny specks of life onscreen. Ryan made things "worse" when he came in and just broke down when he realized his bills and payables would be doubled (hehehe ;-p)! We ended up laughing and crying inside the ultrasound room as we hugged and said a prayer together.

How I wish I could say that it was smooth sailing after. The day before the first ultrasound, I had some light blood spotting and was rushed to the hospital. Given my pregnancy history,  my current pregnancy is deemed to be on the sensitive side. I had to take two weeks of complete bed rest. That was TWO whole weeks of not going out of the house and limited bathroom privileges. I almost got depressed until I saw the second ultrasound results. Barely two weeks after, the tiny specks quadrupled in size and their heartbeats were more than twice as fast as mine.

Ultrasound snapshot at 7 weeks, 4 days. The Tan twins now measure 1.35 cm with heartbeats of 169 and 162 bpm.

Today, my Bible reading brought me to Psalm 127:3. It says that children are an inheritance from the Lord. They are not worked for- they are simply given. Everytime I lay my hands on my womb to pray for my unborn babies, I do wrestle with God to have their lives preserved. We are still within the twelve-week danger zone. I can only do so much in eating the right food, staying away from harmful substances, taking plenty of rest, giving up certain activities and even taking on the wheelchair. But in the end, it is still the sovereignty of God that will prevail.

I choose to be still now and know that God is God, and BELIEVE  that He will give us our babies this time around.

No to Stairs

I have resolved to avoid the stairs for at least the next seven months. It will be a bit sad for me because it means I will have to miss the Sunday services in Music Museum and gatherings held at the VCF Center.

On the brighter side, that leaves me no option but to stick with VCF Greenhills' new mid-week services at the Teatrino. God's timing is really good!