From Grief to Hope

Sharing a note for a dearly loved couple who lost their baby through premature labor at 20 weeks old. My heart aches for every expecting mother who has to go through this. I take hope that from our tears and grief and brokenness, He forms a heart that is more tender and more ready to love and nurture again.

Dear Ate xxx,

Memories of my lost baby came rushing back when I heard the sad news about [baby's name]. I mourn and grieve and cry with you. Just looking at his precious frail body breaks my heart- and I know it's breaking yours over and over again.


And yet in our brokenness we have to find the strength to look ahead and hope again. And our hope is not in vain when our hearts are captured by God's love. We hope again for another baby for you and [her husband]. We hope again that you will find yourself in the delivery room once more and you will get to hear the cries of your precious one.


There will be days when you will ask over and over again: "Why?" And the why's may never be answered. I take comfort in knowing that I can trust in God's loving heart. He gives and takes away. We thank Him when He gives, we thank Him when he takes away.


[Baby's name] will always be a part of our hearts and we treasure his memory with you and [her husband]. As you grieve over him, I pray that you will also make room in your heart for comfort, healing and hoping again :)

We love you and our prayers are with you.

Jihan & Ryan

Blog Changes

Earlier this month, I deleted my two old blog sites and merged all of the posts here. Straightcurves Run! was meant to chronicle my running journey while Make It Two was supposed to be a joint blog with my husband. The running site hibernated once we started planning for a baby while the joint blog became a victim of other priorities. 

If you read the previous posts, expect some incoherence in the topics. I do wish to continue blogging if only to capture priceless lessons, beautiful moments and the anatomies of my daily challenges, which should be filed in my memory. At least, if the latter fails, I have this to return to.

More than a year later...

I am still up at 1am, reviewing for an exam  on Saturday in financial derivatives. My last post here was dated August 2, 2010. I was pregnant with twins then and had just resigned from work.

Fast forward to today: we now have a beautiful angel who's turning one on Feb 21,  and I'm a full-time homemaker pursuing a master's degree in MS Finance. Obviously, a lot of stories need to be told from where I left off...

I have always wanted to resume blogging again, but somehow failed to pin down a start date. Just now, while reviewing, it struck me that maybe I should start this instant. Well, it's really more of me wanting to get distracted from my review. Hehe.  This is one nasty habit I need to rid myself of- wanting to be distracted when doing something tedious but necessary. So let me cut this distraction short before I get too distracted. I hope I don't find myself wanting to be distracted when I write my next post :-)

I shall come back after my Saturday exam!

p.s. I'm bothered with our blog site title. We're now three so shall I change it to "make it three"? An argument against that would be, well, Rylah isn't contributing to this site yet, so yes, "make it two" is still appropriate. It's not obvious but this is supposed to be a joint blog site between me and hubby. He has yet to post something though. Maybe I should boot him out? Hmmm... Now I'm too distracted!!